Journal: Had some deep thoughts during the months after my W dropped the bomb and before I read DR.
She said I never understood her. I never learn to read her body language. All i care is about myself. She hates me for all the things I've ever done. She never had a father to dote on and questioned me why i can't dote on her more. She hate me for making her feel that she is never worth anything.
She followed up with another text the following day. She told me she remember the times she had to beg me to love her. So often she had to beg me to buy her things. So often she had to beg me to spend time with her. Its always ended with her crying badly and feeling so hurt before I will change a little. She commented on things never stays for long. She asked whether I remember the number of times she tell me that she don't feel love. She also said that nothing has changed except her expectations for me. She didnt feel that I've put in extra effort to make her feel love.
