I am really struggling with getting a life. I am spending as much time with friends and family as I can, but I am not getting out of my old circles very much. I don't know what it is. I don't know if I am looking in the wrong places, or if I am just too picky about the people I socialize with. Perhaps that is the cause of some of my issues. Today, I feel almost as down as I did on BD. I am just IN the DUMPS!
I realize I need to GAL and start building my own future, but I just can't seem to get it together. Even when I am doing fun activities, I always have wife in the back of my mind. It's not healthy, but I don't know how to stop the cycle.
I was just out visiting with friends at a local bar. I know, probably not the best place to be right now, but I only had 2 beer. I was there more so for the companionship. But, here I am back at home, alone, and depressed as all get out....this is my life today.
