BRNR, WH and BM, thank so much for the feedback on ADs. I know I waited way too long to discuss them with my doctor along with anti-anxiety meds. I kept telling myself that I could get through this without meds. I was feeling so bad that I couldn't get it together on my own. I really felt like I had failed. I wanted to take the advice here - PMA, GAL - but I just couldn't do it. I've actually gotten worse the last few months. I want to feel better. I still have a lot more to deal with, but I don't want to keep putting my life on hold just waiting for all of the pieces to fall into place. Now that I've actually made the decision to try meds I can't get to the doctor soon enough. How long did it take to notice a difference?
So, finally, some good news. My Mom's blood test came back and her tumor markers dropped 40 points. The chemo is working. We can't know what that means for the future, but at least she's getting better, if only slightly. I'm encouraged.
Also, the boys and I received a fabulous gift today. My best friend sent us first class plane tickets so we can visit her family in Dallas later this summer. We are all so overwhelmed by her love and generosity. (While we're there I will be looking at homes to buy. Moving is my Plan B.) It felt so good to give the boys something to look forward to. We haven't been able to go anywhere since xh has tied up my money. He, on the other hand, has been tossing money around and living it up. Well, I doubt he has been shown the love and support that I've been, both in my physical world and here.
