Raine, you did awesome with your conversations with your h. And I agree, it is hard for others to understand about MLC.
I suffered from depression most of my life in varying degrees.
Thankfully, I have gotten the help I needed to be able to no longer suffer from it.
I can tell you that depression feels like you are swimming in mud. No matter how hard you try, you still cant get to where you need to be. You are in a fog. Everything seems to be so difficult to manage.
You feel as if no matter what you do, you cannot feel better. So, each day, you give a little thought to trying and then, when it feels hopeless, you stop.
At some point during my depression, I remember thinking to myself, what is wrong with me? I knew something wasnt right, but, I didnt know what it was. But I also remember feeling like I was right about how things looked and why doesnt everyone see it that way.
I hope that helps in some way.
Keep doing what you are doing, R. You are amazing.
