you guys, you know, i frequently have to just say out loud i hate h (i've even said it to his stupid face now or then) he laughs (probably soooo egocentric thinks it's "for effect"
when is ay it tho- i do - and i hate ow as well.. it's just feels better to say it out loud rather than just mull it over and keep it inside . inside is where the damage gets done.
yell at something of his or the phone or his picture. .
I THINK THO - that as long as we've even got the juice and energy to think in terms of Hate & need to say it - we probably don't really at the end of the day. (hate them). it's a passionate thing- response to being hurt. so- passion is still attached to some part of our r with them. did that make sense- somehow they inspire strong emotions.
my thinking is that when we reach a point when we don't even care- are totally dispassionate and NEURTAL as in they don't even register in our hearts & minds - then it's a dangerous place.
that is when we are DONE with them and the whole thing. INDIFFEERENCE is waaaay worst than hate (imho) i think indifference is the end.
Linda - boy do i know what you mean when you say you talk and see the stinking hostility or disdain in their face. there have been times i swear, i could have, well, i don't know what.
it was sooo obvious, so hurtful, SOOOOO UNFAIR. SUCH A STINKING RAW DEAL. his own junk - whatever it is inside him - telling his stupid brain it's alllllll my fault. if only life were THAT easy huh?
hasn't happened in awhile now- i can remember with twinge of pain = judged & hung for a crime you never committed...
,man, is there anything worse in life than being on the receiving end of injustice. not much.
anyway- just wanted to throw in my hate point of view. some days i have to say out loud i hate my mothr- it's such a giant dump-fest. even saying out loud i understand - i don't think i really do. even saying out loud i hate - i don't think i really do.
for cripes sake- i'm a mere mortal & not perfect. we all are- i get the brooding thing on bad emotions.
this is not that.
ONE OF MWD other books - maybe change yourself & everyone in your life (something like that) is good - i think she makes the point about FEELINGS - THEY ARE JUST THAT - FEELINGS.
FEELINGS CHANGE. YOU MAY FEEL THIS TODAY- THAT TOMORROW. DON'T PUT ALL THAT MUCH WEIGHT IN THEM - AND THINK TWICE ABOUT ACTING ON THEM- MAY FEEL DIFFERENTLY VERY SOON.
SOMEthing like that- it stuck with me. it's true. one of those ah ha kind of moments -=
with lack of sleep i hate the world. next day- well rested - i'm ready to keep going and try anything and even have a good mood. (and cut everyone a break) at least my own feelings are allover the place from day to day- minute to minute.
the difference iS DRAMATIC and makes her point.
so big deal - this minute i hate his stupid face because he did or said something ratty. next i am "fond" (at least) because i remember something truyly kind or generous and i remember olden days.
