If I sent something as important as that I would expect a response. I want her to know that even though I'm not actively talking to her and that I'm done being controlled by her doesn't mean I'm done with us.
In a way this could be her testing me. She has thrown the D thing at me 3 times now. This one is more thought out or expressed than ever before.
She tries to put it across that she is giving me prior warning. Is that to be nice or to twist the knife? Is she twisting the knife because she can or to get a reaction from me.
I've read the email a few times now and something stands out. She mentions where my job is and I will not move there and she will I move back. That hasn't been the case since November, I have said I would move there. Why would she say this? Just to add to her reasons for the divorce?
I read her list of the breakdown of the marriage and it is WAS rewriting history. It's not completely made up but it's a bit like a statement "we were never happy" just a round up of a feeling right now that suits the cause.
I also look at everything and think well I wouldn't be like that now. I have worked on myself and I am a better person than I was 12 months ago. She hasn't really tried. She's pi55ed off that I stood up to her and this is the only way she can get me out of her life or punish me.
It is very common for her to cut off people that don't toe her line. Even if she divorces me we are still going to have just as much interaction as we do now.
I know I'm mind-reading a lot but I need to express whats going on in my head right now. No matter how ready you are your never ready enough.
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
