shouldistillhope: Thank you so much for the reply.
The reason I am in such bad shape today is because last night I had a dream about the W and I that I didn't want to wake up from. That and the end is so near now.
It is hard for me to deal with hope because like I said in somebody else's post, I am a recovering pessimist. I'm usually not a hopeful person. I am trying to change this as part of my 180s, but it is so hard to be hopeful when your W is scrambling away from you like the cat in those old Pepe Le Pew cartoons.
Realistically, knowing my wife, I don't think there is any hope. But can I be sure that it is a realistic assessment or just my natural pessimism rising up?
The initial weeks after the BD, I could hope. She and I were talking occasionally, and she even said nice things to me. After six months of this, it hard to have hope.
Last night, I saw an article about an AARP study on divorce (surveyed people 40 and older) that said only 6% of couples remarry after a divorce, which is nearly half that of the 10% figure that gets quoted around here. That took a lot of wind from my sails, too.
GAL activities for the week: Attending a meeting for a local non-profit that I volunteer for tonight, therapy tomorrow, and working for the non-profit Friday, hopefully.
