Blindsided

[chl0901]

Hi Hwy,

I'm used to H being the intimacy initiator, but because one of his previous complaints to me has been that he wishes I would take more initiative in the bedroom, I tried multiple times last week and was shut down each time, the final time I tried he told me he was getting really sick of me pouting about it and I'm pushing him away. So I have not tried since then.

However, I'm usually the one to send "have a good day!" or "I love you!" text messages every once in awhile, but have stopped since trying to DB and he had already stopped responding to those since the BD last month anyway. Now we don't text anymore really unless it's business.

I'm also having a really hard time dealing with my feelings of jealousy about the fact that I know he is texting and talking to OW about God knows what. I know I need to let it go and that I cannot do anything about it but it is driving me mad. Don't worry, I will not confront him about it - I've learned that much. It is really difficult for me to know this though.