And so the piecing begins.....

[Tryin2figuritout]

It's going.... I guess I should keep my glass half full glasses on and say it's going well. We had a great weekend when I returned with the kids on Saturday. The Mrs. even admitted to being "hopeful" about us during the weekend, but then hit a few snags...nothing major just bumps.

I had a rough day back at work after a week off and it showed when I went over again Monday night and immediately shut her down. This lead to a big text discussion Monday night and a great face-to-face discussion last night.

Two of my biggest self-improvements that I've been working on for myself have been: 1) Dealing with Work - I've been a workaholic for years and I've found its not just prioritizing to work more focused causing less hours, but also not letting the work stress bog the individual down. When we texted Monday, it honestly hit me for the first time about the "work fog" I can be in and knowing that it's me allowing that to occur and not being bigger/better than it. I don't want this and now I saw what impact it has on her.

2) Laziness - Becoming a single dad doesn't allow for laziness to occur. If you do, you get swallowed up with everything pretty easily. I've always been better under pressure than not in work, school and life. It seems like it was easier for me to "thrive" when the divorce was full throttle than now. Some of that I attribute to having the ups and downs right now.

Key thing I'm trying to remind myself is that I have the ability to control my reactions to these emotions and feelings. Once the Mrs. indicated she would like to try at reconciling I thought this would just happen, but I realize that I was wrong. It's right there in front of my face and tangible, but I just can't seem to put a good grip on it, if that makes sense.

Thanks for asking because that felt good getting that out there. How is it going for you?

Later,
Trying