Wanted to add that I'm seeing my doctor on Friday. I haven't been since BD. I have been wondering how much hormones and/or depression is skewing my perspective and feelings. I have done everything I can without meds, but it may be time for intervention. I don't want to stay in this hole forever. I want to enjoy the things I used to do. I want to be vibrant again, not the shell of a person I currently am. My kids need this from me and they deserve it.
OK, so no more sorrow. Thank you for the reminders that I deserve better. Please keep that coming. That's what I really need now. And, 2x4's when I start pining for the jerk that doesn't want me.
