Was reading your thread and wanted to stop by to send support and best wishes your way!
"1st I really have to work on stop worrying about if and when H will be home. 2nd I need to start sleeping much better at nights. 3rd I need to start making myself into the better person for myself and my boys. 4th as soon as I can afford it I really want to have a make over to improve the way I look and how i feel about myself. And most of all I really need to give H all the space I can give him to run his course with OW and to stop all communications with H until he speaks to me first tomorrow is going to be a new day heading to the gym in The morning then to work after that."
All of those sound like great ideas! Even a mini-makeover could do wonders! I get on Pinterest a lot to look up outfit refresher ideas with things I already have in my closet, or how to buy one new piece (like a great top or skirt) and wear it multiple ways with things I already own. Also, going and getting a new lipstick or nail polish in a fun color may help brighten up your appearance and make you feel good. Again with Pinterest (haha, I love that site!), I get a lot of hairstyle and hair do ideas as well as make up tricks. I haven't done this yet, but I have a friend who goes to garage sales almost every weekend and gets really cute tops and outfits for really cheap - and a lot of the clothes still have tags on them!
Exercise will also be a good outlet for some of your stress and anxiety. To quote Elle Woods from Legally Blonde, "Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy."
Good ideas I've yet to start my gym classes, lol. I like pinterest as well, loads of really good ideas Over here in the UK we have a TV programme called superscrimpers which has got loads of ideas for searching for free activities, upcyling your clothes and shoes and other really good tips. You can search on the internet for channel 4, then go to scrapbook and find superscrimpers there
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
