Not New to This Anymore

[steveh27]

Today she asked if I was going to keep the next mediation appointment. I felt cornered as I was leaving for work. Avoiding conversations is hard during this time as the kids arent up yet and it feels like open season during those hours.

Anyway I answered the best I could.

M: "I dont on plan changing the appointment ... why do you ask?".

W: "Because you postponed the last one - I wanted to make sure."

M: "I really dont to have time for a conversation right now when heading out the door. Can we talk later?"

W: "Do you really plan on going?"

M: "I really have to go. Im already late ... have a good day. I'll let you know if I get a check."

W: nothing

(the "check" thing is based on not getting paid for awhile from a contract I'm working - it's adding to our stress levels also financially).

I did not handle it well. I am not adept in handling quick stress conversations. I gave her my honest answer. I dont plan on NOT going, although I still think my best emotions will not be there, but I dont think they ever will. The plan is not to piss her off but the left over points left to discuss have been tabled for a reason as we can't agree on them. This may affect the "amicable" part of the mediation theme.