My W had an EA the first time in 2005, about a year after I had gotten out of the Army. The second time was in 2009 two different men, and the guy from the first time. Two months ago it was a different man but one that I had met and was actually at our wedding. And now she has someone else. I lost myself when I left the army and even more with the first EA. I kept telling myself that if I show her that I love her and can forgive her that she will be completely mine. I was wrong. I made my mistakes and I can own up to them. I can forgive her and I am praying about it. I did it before. Control is something that I do not feel right now. I didn't sleep again last night even though I tried to go to bed early. I laid there for two to three hours waiting for it to take over.
Lord in your name, I pray that I find control, forgiveness of self and for W. I pray that You will intervene on my behalf when it comes to my children giving me the strength and wisdom to raise them. I pray that You will intervene on my behalf when it comes to myself change my heart to fit your will not mine.
Me 32 W 30 Married 11 D10, S6 BD#1 January of 09 OM#1 2005 OM#2 Dec 08 OM#3 March/April of 09 Back together August 09 OM#4 May 13 W moves out June 2013 BD#2 June 21 2013 Filed July 2013 D final in Oct
