Lots of tears tonight. I so badly wanted to be one of the lucky ones.
GM - You are one of the lucky ones. You may not see this right now, but I know that your decisions have made you the person you are. Which is a very strong woman who was dealt some crappy cards, and dealt with it the best way possible.
I know that the outcome may have not been what you wanted, but your future is still unwritten. Things can and will change.
Feel the grief, sadness, and anger. And then let it go and move forward. You have many blessings that will fulfill your life.
I have been looking at this with a mental image that maybe will help you.
Life is a see saw or a scale. On one side is all the positive and one side is negatives. In my life my positives far outweigh the negatives and the positives are "lifting me up". In my H's case, I can totally see the opposite. His only positive right now is whatever feel good he gets from OW/GF. But he has lost his wife, kids, financial security, home, extended family, etc. etc. While I have all those things, except a OM/BF.
This is the same for you GM!!! You will make it through with all those things intact and so much more.
Please know this divorce is not the end of your journey, but a part of it. And know that life is never constant and always changing.
Luv ya girl!!! Take care.
BombOctober 2012- OW 11/28/12 -H still denies Separated 11/29/12 Own place 12/12/12 Confessed OW/EA/PA 2/2/13 Oct 2013 - I knew I was done Jan 2014 - Anticipating the rest of my life