We were married for 16 years and been together 23 of the past 26 years, all the while I was a drinker with a problem. I was a drinker when we first met. She came into the relationship not once, but twice knowing that. I'm not using this as an excuse, just giving some more background.
So, if she's trying to equalize somehow, that means that she'll go through with the divorce. Plus this means that she won't forgive me another 23 to 26 years from now. That's just heart-wrenching just thinking about it.
I don't know what's worse right now. Accepting the fact that she's going through with this divorce, or knowing that she utterly hates me. She can't stand being in the same room with me, or even talk civilly to me. When we do talk, she always has one word answers, and she'll never divulge information unless specifically asked.
I am truly in the most pain I've ever experienced. Sometimes I wish I'd never stopped drinking. What I thought was a blessing from God to finally beat the bondage of an addiction has only been a curse. My wife is leaving me and trying to take my children as well.
Me:44 W:42 D:15 D:12 M16/T24 4/8/13 had me served w/ divorce papers 8/12/13 answer date/court date for divorce moved out 8/31/13 divorce finalized 1/23/14
