GM your husband is broken. It is not normal to have a smirk on your face when you end a long marriage. Like you I find it strange that the Courts accept it all without asking the any searching questions.
You did so well, and it is so hard. All I can say is that the pain goes away. Our spouses have to live with what they have done, and I believe it comes back to bite them. I subscribe to the view that most MLCers have a borderline personality disorder which gets worse as they get older, and they eventually cannot make an important life transition.
They flip from needing us for their well being to not needing us, and hence, in their crazy minds, discarding us without much thought. Some blame us and divorce, and others stay around being 'nice' but having affairs. Neither state is good!
This will have taken its toll - please take care of your emotional and physical health, and yes, tell us what you need in the way of support.
