Thank you so much for the consoling words. I knew I could come here and safely share my grief.

AJ, thank you for asking how you (board members) can help. I so rarely get asked that question. I cried. I've had so much on my shoulders and at times have felt very alone. Just reading all of responses helps so much. I appreciate all of the kindness, compassion and honesty. Sometimes I don't want or can't see what the rest of you do. Looking at another perspective facilitates my growth. I'm so grateful.

Lots of tears tonight. I so badly wanted to be one of the lucky ones.