man- i'm livin on this computer today- don't know why. was upbeat in a.m.- then got a bit dreary - spent several hours looking (not finding) my poor mother's teeth- cripes- how disheartening is that- losing your teeth somewhere around the house and i swear dawn- they are in none of the usual and likely places.
i'm mighty glad tonite to have teeth that are stuck in my head.
then dinner next door w/ gal from pa who comes for a week at a time with mother in wheelchair (stroke). it was okay- it sure makes me remember we only have today & now- make it good.
I don't blame you for no involve in linda's convo going on- it's a bit wierdish i think- feels a bit hostile/- poor ole linda- things get rather "heated" up lately and it's hard enough to keep things unjumbled in your head. me- i need peaceful and nice exchanges and some harmony here.. i love the kind support & words. idk about alot of the adament pleas for action - or comments on her actions - or lack thereof.
YOUR NEW PHASE - IDK how to begin. i think just saying it to y9ourself and out loud here is a first step. you know- the journey of 1000 miles begins with the frst step.
what would you really like to happen (that could or might? really). it seems to me that your h will not ever leave willingly. i can't figure how it would benefit you to move out and have to find an apartment with all the attendant expense - and would he pay for it??? or would you have to??? i know you want to chill without him around a bit- need the reprieve - but how could or would that work?
would it be an "act of war" and push him, well, where would it push hinm???
i can't figure it out - gotta think- back tomorrow-
