Had an OK weekend - a couple of very upsetting incidents at the start (too long to detail), but I weathered them pretty well emotionally. I spent the weekend doing things, which helped. One of W's complaints at MC was about me helping out around the house, which has been very difficult whilst depressed, but in DB mode on the weekend (and the past couple of weeks), I have been doing the dishes, washing the floors, doing laundry, etc. I have been pretty good about this in the past (I think), but definitely was no help recently as it's all I can do to get out of bed most weekends.
W mentioned on the weekend that she has noticed that I have been much more helpful - this was unsolicited. I have also stopped myself on several occasions from discussing R. I did screw up on this once over the weekend, but it didn't last long as W changed the subject as rapidly as possible. It is hard to not discuss it when that's the thing I want to resolve, but I am trusting the book and the people here that I am doing the right thing. What is the warning sign that it's OK to discuss again?
As for my GAL efforts, I have been eating healthily since late last week (I'm guessing I've gained 15 pounds since all this started) and am planning to run tonight (I used to be able to do 5K and I think I might make it 5 yards). I'm also going to make social plans with a friend this weekend and start to do a bit of my own thing during the week.
Thanks again for the support - being moderated, it's hard to keep this thread going in a timely manner, but I guess if I post enough, I'll be cleared.
