Thanks Blue and Linda for the encouragement. I so very much need it. We got into a huge fight last night. I ended up sobbing out of control like a maniac and he just walked away shaking his head saying I needed to stop it that I was crazy and needed help. And by the way he and JW are back together. I don't know how much more I can take of this drama.
H is such an idiot about JW and she has him so brainwashed or whatever it is. I question myself over and over...will he ever wake up from this??? I need to pull myself out of this awful place I am in I know that. I didn't even get dressed yesterday. That is not like me. I slept on and off most of the day.
Please forgive me everyone for acting like this. I hate it. I need to start back over at step one I think. Do I have to it in me to keep doing this?? I feel so stupid for loving this monster...
