i have one thing to say - it is my belief now, that your h and my h are kidding themselves along with us.
perhaps not intentionally - they are so nuts this moment i cannot make that call. my h lies to himself too as much as he lies(or lied) to me - it's clear from some of the totally goofy things he's said that are such HUGE AND BROAD SWEEPING history re-writes - it's embarassing to hear him utter them. i guess they sound good in his head - but outside in the light of day- i shudder at how simplistic & trite & just , well, crazy.
BUT - THE VASECTOMY- my h too. i would guess he just KNEW that it would secure him and ka bam- off and running.
i'm guessing totally- but i'm thinking it's just that knowledge deep down inside that they are now free to do whatever - WITH NO POSSIBLE CONSEQUENCE that puts their conscience into a coma and off they go- instinct gets free rein and there's no lookin back. lets face it- primordial urge to squirt as much you-know-what in as many possible hospitable places as can find (or can't outrun them) or stand still long enough. animal instinct at it's - what? best or worst? replicate yourself man....
will they ever return? idk- i've thought about the love them no matter what-
i've thought about the loving them thru thick and thin
i've wondered about the quality of my love
i'm thinking- it is more the quality of their ability to receive love, deserve it and feel it's as important in their life as it is. (well, i like to think i is) .
i'm not shirking responsibility- i have alot about everything.
HOWEVER - MY DEAR- I'M pretty darn sure scarlett that it's them - not us. they know we listen and think and inspect ourselves for flaws, responsibilitiy, etc- AND THEY USE IT TO FULL ADVANTAGE. THEY honed in on people LIKE US because we fulfill something they need and they know they can work us-
so they do. not necessarily always bad or maliciously- just it's possible and maybe irresistabble for them...
