W and I had a great session with MC this morning. MC helped me realize that I need to accept W for who she is right now. And that it would take a huge weight off of my shoulders. It already has.
She explained how people are constantly changing in marriages. That one spouse might be growing faster than the other, one might be in better shape at one time, one might be more spiritual at the time, etc
But as long as that married couple realized that divorce is not an option and they have the same goals that they will have a great marriage. It takes constant understanding and effort towards each other.
She felt like where we are as couple from what she saw over a month ago was extremely positive. And that she likes move to atlanta. She said we should be nervous, but geography doesn't matter as long as we are a team and working towards the same things.
W broke down when she told MC that I had said I wasn't sure if this is what I wanted a couple weeks ago. W told her that it scared her and hurt her. It was tough to watch her being hurt by my words so much.
I know what I want. I said those things to put up my guard.
Because obviously I still have a lot of tust issues.
I need to continue to watch my words and my tone. It's not a pretty side of me.


M 37 W 30
S 7
Together 10 years
Married 9 years
BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day)
I moved to apartment 1/11/13
W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13
Peicing: 6/3/13
Reconciled: 7/2013
BD2: 4/20/16
still working on it