While talking to my S22 tonight he tells me how H said he wants to leave but I won't let him! He asked S what do guys do when they don't have work, S said they enjoy other things I life, and their families. H said not me, I have to work till I die.
I have told this man countless of times to leave. But, as he said yesterday his depression is creeping up. He said he can only beat it by doing the rebellious things he does. That's why he needs to be cut from us.
He can't handle life, and it always come down to he would be better if he left home. But, then he doesn't want to leave home. In the next sentence he told S how he likes to make sure he's providing for us.
He came home joking and depressed a minute later! In and out of these two personalities. I hate to say it, for my own safety, but I don't think he wants to leave, or loose us, I think he will never know how to do either or and be stuck in this limbo.
I'm so worried for myself, I have to move forward and away from this but I too am stuck, for now!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!