Wow TVS, I didn't realize the Eagles should be the official band of LBSs. I vote for Lyin Eyes as our theme song!!
"I believe my H's PA started out as an EA. I'm sure a lot of them do. I don't really know if one is more or less painful, as they both have broken my heart. I feel like with each, my H gave a part of himself that was supposed to be special and only for me to someone else. And I feel like once that happens, you can't undo what has already been done. The damage is there. What was once sacred is cheapened and broken."
my H's PA started as an infatuation or maybe a short EA, then H broke it off in a couple of months(his usual MO with his language partner friends) and restarted up the end of January. The PA hurts me a lot, but the fact that he gives so much love and affection and attention to RT hurts worse than the fact that he boinked that skinny skank. uR helped me a lot, TVS, to see that he's not giving her his ALL and she's not getting him at his best but it frigging hurts. He has such lying eyes. And so does she.
We went to Home Depot this evening, and he was acting so friendly and nice, and I stupidly patted his leg, and he flinched away like my hand was 300 degrees. So hurtful TVS. I had this horrible overwhelming feeling that I do not want to do this any more. That I can not do this any more. But one second later he was babbling again friendly as can be.
I get so confused TVS. So sad. Nero was asking today how long it will be until the novacaine wears off their feelings for us. I cannot do this for another 31/2 years.
Thanks for writing this "But I have been assured by some pretty reliable people that trust can be restored and a M renewed." i truly believe that TVS. I believe that yours will be, and soon. And I know that mine CAN be, but am not sure I'll still be here when H wants me back
Linda
Me 65, Ex 64 M 38 y 2 adult S, 4 G-Kids MLC 11/07 BD 12/09 D 3/14 Dating nice guy 7/14 Engaged to nice guy 12/17
