Being patient.

[Mtnman]

Thank u rH! It's nice to know that even if I have to do the unthinkable, there's still hope!

You're the best!!!

[reachingHigher]

Awww...shucks, Mtnman.

What's the unthinkable? Continuing on as it has been? Or filing?

Ya. I understand.

I know, for myself, I like myself a lot better than I did five years ago!

I had a really significant dream the other night. The kind that I might have one of in a ten year period. It was a dream in symbols of my life, my journey, my searching. Kind of profiling my side of my H's MLC journey and before our M crumbled.

I told H about it in the morning. He just hugged me and understood.

I'm convinced our journey with our spouses through this is as much about us as it is about them. It's been a journey for depth of meaning and understanding in life and that's part of what makes our reconnection so special.

It was worth waiting for.

[Mtnman]

Filing is the unthinkable.

I know I'm better today than I was a year ago. I realize I don't need her, but that I do want her. Still (commodores!)

I know I'm a better father, though I also know I'm shorter with them due to the stress of it all. I know they are my number 1 priority.

I'm also afraid I'll look weak if I continue letting her act this way. Maybe it's pride, but I worry she's taking advantage of my good nature.

Really confused.

[Mtnman]

Started a new thread since at 100. "Am I ready for this?"

[reachingHigher]

I don't rememeber, Mtnman, do you have a good IC? Did you say you had one session left with Chuck? It might be a good time to use it. I know they're expensive.

I used three sessions. I read that other people used more, but I seemed to only need the three and really respect MWD's people in that Chuck didn't make me feel like I continued to need him when I had gotten the proper advice.

I know that putting up boundaries in addition to letting my H into my heart....in the right mixture was the fine line I had to walk.

[Mtnman]

I've been thinking I need to contact chuck. Cash in my last chip. I do not have an IC.