I don't know rH. I'm typing this through tears. I don't want to be done but I'm tired of the hurt, I'm tired of the signals the boys are getting, I'm tired of worrying about the finances.

My heart says keep fighting, but my head says your (I'm) a fool. It was too much to hear her say "taking the boys". I couldn't ignore that. In my state I can't file for D for another six months (one year after separation), so it's mainly to protect my finances, and rights. I just don't know. It's loose/loose!

M - 42
W- 37
S's - 9,6
M-12
T-14
FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011
ILYBNILWY - march '12
FIL - died jan '13
W Moved out week later