I got my DB book but wasn't able to read past chapter 5 due to work/school conflicts. My husband has been away at his parent's house for the past week and I have made no contact with him, neither has he with me. I actually haven't had trouble with the no contact rule this time around. I've placed myself in another experiment in my lab, in which I've spent long hours of my time focusing on that. I've actually been a little relieved he's not here right now so I can without guilt put time in my lab and school work. One thing I think I realized, and I don't know how true this is, is that I've always been able to easily neglect my marriage when I'm in lab. I will stay there until 11pm or midnight, and my H used to text me asking me when I was coming home. He no longer does that of course. He also complained that if I spent this much time at work how were we able to have a family. I'm so very confused right now. Do I continue to go to work for long hours, or do I show him I've changed? I love what I do, and a lot of work I do requires solid lengths of time. Also I'm getting paid to do this, and it's my thesis. I feel like if I don't show any work I'll be kicked out of my lab. I want my marriage to work, but I'm just exhausted from worrying about it. I'm a bit lost. Also, I got news that a grandmother I'm close to is deathly ill. Now, I'm a bit depressed over that. I can't see her until August, when some time will free up (she's out of state). I got to stay positive and try to keep my head up.
