lost and alone now

[kelela]

Thank you I will look into those sites you have mentioned. And I don't think that everyone is nagging or hitting me with a 2x4. Everyone here has been very kind and helpful and I know I'm always poor me and I'm wanting everyone to feel sorry for me. I know everyone is going through The same as me or their situation is worst then mine. This is just a way to let my feelings come out. I'm that type of person that keeps everything bottled up inside and one day it will all just bursts open and I'll make the biggest mistake in hurting The wrong person. I was thinking buying a journal book but I didn't want to leave out in case my sons or H to find it and read what or how I'm feeling about this whole situation. And I so much appreciate everyone's help here on this site. So when I have ppl hitting me with a 2x4 I don't take it as they are being mean sometime I do need to hear the hard responds back from everyone. My friend Here in my town that has been with me since day one she always wants to hit me on the head with a 2x4 cause I have a hard time listening to her suggestion on how to handle this situation. This is how I stop thinking so much then one little thing and back to poor me once again. This is what I have to work on is stop being poor me and start to live again.