Thank you so much labug and KG for stopping by. I need your words of encouragement just as much now as I did before.
Generally today was a great day. I didn't get a chance to go to my am mtg but we painted and that is so therapeutic. The rest of the day was also good. Night was rough but only for a moment.
I didn't follow MCs orders. I got a trigger and instead of reaching out to H I walked out of the house and ran around the block (in heels). I felt like I was drowning in a pool. Running helped me open up my airway and be able to breathe.
I came home and H was concerned. I told him the truth. I struggle to be close to him when I get these triggers. I'm not angry. I'm trying to take care of myself.
He wants to know what he did or said that brought on the trigger. I told him I don't think that's important. My triggers will happen regardless. He can't help me avoid getting them but he can help me to manage them.
On the plus side, we talked for 15 after and it was nice. It helped me to get close to him.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
