Moving forward together from a mess

[cbtdad]

Thanks Urworthy!
I have gotten a lot better lately about being patient on ML.
I do want her to get it out of her system. I want her to get a lot out.
We just spent about 4 days together at my families camp over the 4th holiday.
When we got back I watched son so she could go ride. As soon as she got back I was ready to get out of there and get away.
Over the past few days I am starting to have real doubts about us. I am starting to see the reason I was so unhappy last year and started going out all the time. Those feelings are returning. There is just no conversation on her part. Always on her phone. Doesn't socialize with any family members. It's awkward. Even though this is new working on things it's reminding of all the past behavior.
We are scheduled to go to atlanta to visit this Thursday and look at apartments, schools, etc so we can formalize a plan and time for possibly moving.
Which she wants to do by August 1st. That is still crazy to me considering we still haven't even stayed in the same bed yet.
She shows now attention or affection towards me, yet she says all the right things and talks about the future. I just feel nothing from her and I in return am starting to feel nothing towards her. I want to feel wanted. Is that too much to ask?
I am becoming extremely worried about whether this is the right choice for me.
I'm not sure she is capable of changing. And the person she has been over the last year and half is not someone I want to be married to. Maybe this is who she is now. This is so confusing on what to do. I do way my family together, but at what cost to my happiness. We talked a lot more when we weren't working on things and I felt we did more for our son apart than together.
Maybe it's best to diorce and be friends and coparents before it gets bad.
I am lost!