No it's no stupid to want to reconcile. That's why we all came here. A lot of bad things have happened along the way, but you are choosing to remember good things and you still have love in your heart for your H. I know you hate his behavior right now. It's hurtful and hard to deal with. Try each day to see him for who he is at that moment and let go of what he has done. If he is good with the kids or helpful acknowledge it. If you don't like something use your best DBing to make your feelings known. Your relationship can recover from this and if that's what you want you will need to build a bridge. It will start with trust and friendship. You can do this, WH. Start writing a new story.
