Hey Nero, sorry to hear about mom, I'm sure it's not easy on either of you!
IMHO, you should go to Fl, mom will be who she is with you there or without! Your going to make sure she's fine, and your have a sister there, it will have to be on her for a while, sorry Nero needs time off!
Your in a very delicate state right now, you sound ( and I know you probably give your worste here as you should) , but you sound a little sad, maybe scared, unsure, and even pissed w a touch of confused. Heck, I just described myself!
If your not your best, what do you have left to give you poor little mom!
You were very content in your life w h and to find that you may have been living his facade for a long time is not easy! But, your doing so well and talking it out here and doing things for yourself, keep going!
We can't afford to stop or look back, it's to fresh, to easy to backslide! One day we can reflect and laugh and cry about this sh1t, but not yet! Hopefully, it's when our new future is happy and filled w lot of L, w whom ever we end up w!
My h is reaching out to me, I think I told him 7xs on thur. that I'm not so needy of him as to be sitting here quietly waiting while he nurtures sir stupido! He just keeps saying enjoy your home and kids and life, let me be lost in the darkness! He doesn't want me to change a thing about our life, he called me his string!
There is no way to say which sitches are better or easier. In your face MLC, or crack pot that disappears for days and shows up wanting you to act like this are just peachy!
They are crazy, not us, we're just dumbfounded!
I'm going w D for new glasses , I always spend way too much getting something really cool. This time I'm gonna look into contacts too, maybe try a new look! I'm still looking for that laughing Buddha, I have been ready the Buddha ways, very interesting, I like open mindness!
How and humid, I hate humidity! Gonna find a pretty sleeveless and get outa here, while h watches like a cat liking his wounds!
Have a great day, Nero! You are ok!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
