Emotional Connection and Attraction

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Thanks Hopeful, great comments.

I agree with your outlook, and I get there MOST of the time.

I still have some of my own things I'm working on. There's times, not all the time, but times, over the last few weeks that I feel these thoughts creep in:

-I have a hard time continuing showing her affection if she doesn't reciprocate.

-There's times I want to go quiet, stop showing her affection just to see if she'd notice and/or come to me.

-I'm not sure how to word it properly, but I almost feel weak or grovelling

-I read things like MMSLP and start getting it into my head to use SOME of its principles to up my Alpha etc etc (the Alpha thing has come up in our R in the past), then it conflicts with what were suggesting above and I get confused on what I should be doing

It's possible my ego is playing a large role in these thoughts. I'm a proud person.

I appreciate your comments, I plan on touching on a few more of them when I get another moment...