I had more guilt actions yesterday. So W was gone 4 days last weekend and Wednesday her friend comes in from out of town. Basically, she isn't around because of that. I text her last night to tell her boys are ready for bed if she wants to run over to say goodnight. She does. Fixed up like pure trash. Boys goof on her so bad. She says her and friend are playing dress up and taking pics. We're 12 years old I guess. She asked what I thought of her look. I laugh and tell her she looks like a $2 "friends name"! Couldn't say whore in front of boys. She laughed. So, I'm putting lotion on oldest S face and she comes up behind me, hugs me really tight, lays her head on my back, and thanks me for giving her a few days off. Reaches around and..... On the way out hugs me and gives me a kiss on the lips. I know some alcohol was involved, but doesn't account for all of that. I'm thinking guilt.
Absolute torture!!!!
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
