And remember that even divorce/dissolution doesn't necessarily mean the end.
Google Sheri and Bob Stritof. They were married for something like 8 years, there was an A and a D. 2 years later they remarried and have been together for over 40 years since.
I see you being easily defeated. Each new development sends you spinning into "its over forever now".
Remember, not only is this road very long, it also has potholes and twists and turns. Sometimes even detours.
I should practice more of what I preach here, but I do know and believe that the more we GAL and detach the easier this all is. But GAL and detach are works in progress.
One day at a time kaikaina. Keep breathing.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.