Still...mana mana, doo doo doo doo doo! Part 3

[Tallula]

Thanks guys!! Ya, it is scary to open myself up, but I know what can happen. Of course I can't expect that I will feel nothing should he cheat, but I know it's a very real possibility. Brian, I too wonder how long he'll keep it up, and each day I'm pleasantly surprised when he actually does more. But, time will tell. If anything it's so much relief having help in the final stretch of the pregnancy. Even a good friend of ours was over for the 4th and was floored by how helpful and kind he was towards the kids & I. She was all "dang, can he give my hubs a lesson." I just laughed. I just keep watching. Not like a waiting for the other shoe to drop, but really seeing if this is permantant or to get me back, though it seems very genuine.

IC recommended 2 John Bradshaw books, He has already read Bradshaw on the family and now it's Healing the Shame. He asked if I'd be willing to read them too and I am. I'm a fast reader, and am really enjoying the first book.

I'm having my own issues with my mom right now. The woman is a severe co dependant & the sitch with my uncle, my little brothers life (ya, for real. Will he graduate, find a wife...it's nuts) and my sitch has her super stressed. We've always been a close family, but I just don't hang out there as much as my other sibs. She was doing her passive aggressive crap & I just do t play the dance anymore, so she was ignoring my calls & texts. Out of the blue she sends me a very attacking text about my kids and I'm really upset about it. Didn't like S4 haircut, and a pic I sent in a text where D2 was running through the sprinkler in her underwear. It was pretty mean, and sonething she does. Bottle stuff in and explode with the most hurtful mean words. It's something I'm working on in IC, but I'm quite upset about it. I responded with a text, but don't feel ready to talk. I just want to enjoy my 4 day weekend with my little family.

I hope everyone had a great 4th!!!! We are headed to the gym then a BBQ!