The plan in my mind was always I would let him come home once he had proven through long continuous action that he had changed, woken up, and wanted to work on us. Now I'm like "Uh...what happened." At what point do I ever have anything go according to plan?
i'm sayin i feel better about the fact that i never have any plan and everyone around me preach like mad- demand- push-urge- all the "plan be" - have a plan, blah blah blah
what can any of us do but take it one little step at a time and react (wisely we hope) to each new little step our mlcr takes?
so- i'm curious how you have a timeline for yourself- how could you ever come up with a timeline for something soooooo beyond your ken & control?
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I don't know if I will ever be enough for him. And I don't want him on any other terms.
i wonder the same- the bulk of my adult life with him- soooo sure - and , what??? i got nothin here - hence my one day at a time- i couldn't cook up a plan or timeline if my life depended on it. - float along and do not wear self out fighting the current (or you may sink & go under from exhaustion). breath, float & hope something presents itself to grab onto - (the flea market person? who said the universe will send me (whatever) just be open to it when it presents itself???!!! - (i guess)
oh geez - so many things you say hit home here. less texting- llllllooooooves ow- (wtf) it's soooo cr@ppy -
i'm so sorry for you having to go thru this - so young- hang on- you're doing so good. maybe if i were younger i'd have plans and timelines and so on. honestly- i'm tired and do not see them - maybe resignation? idk- just floating along-
hope you can find some peace of mind today- you're doing so much- - - maybe try and get your brain to quiet down (somehow) sometimes if possible and give you a break. good luck
xxoo thanks for sharing your story here- it does help us all to know about each other's "hjourney"
