"I get annoyed with the endless little 3-minute talk show segments on "tuning up your love life" by going out to a restaurant, getting a babysitter, helping with the chores. Seriously? If that advice alone worked for everyone there would be no need for therapists."
Again, that's in healthy relationships. The sad thing about your sitch is that you never had a chance to experience a healthy relationship before, so you're pessimistic about M, sex and relationships in general.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.