I think you need to focus on you. So at this point you are making changes that will get you through the chaos and what ever that will bring.
The mistakes I made before finding DB, was that everything I did made him the focus. I was trying so hard to keep my family together that I really lost myself. I became someone that I didn't like much. I was clingy, crying and mad most of the time.
Work on things that you perhaps stopped doing when you got together. What kinds of things do you enjoy? Go do them. Think of things that will make good memories for the kids and do them. Don't do anything that will have the goal of your wife in mind. This is all about you now.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory