aquarius here - artsy & craftie - commitment issues - dedicated & loyal til death - liberal & softhearted - textile addict -
I HATE THE texting - i could take the phone and stick it in his mouth and then - well, i sound vicious. Sick to death of it- hate it= hate the stupid e-mails too. and then he wonders why i'm down on technology . "you jerk- i found out you ruined my world in a stinking sex e-mail- you run around hiding and texting like a 10 yr old moonstruck girl- is that enough???"
oh man- you're sure right this phase feels like forever. today i feel like it's been forever- can i shove it to back of my mind for another day? i don't know how you guys with them in your face allll the time manage. it's soo hard when he's here (tho he is doing nothing much in my face anymore) but then- he only shows up one week and then goes to fl for three. life sure svcks sometimes. i know i've got it better than alot- don't mean to gripe - just sayin.
mee too - this forum has kept me doing this- i never ever in a million years would have had the intestinal fortitude i think if i didn't know tons of folks were out there trying same thing- hoping- sucking it up. it's the injustice of it alllll.
thanks for askin about my organizing.
i have been selling antique dolls & some stuff on ebay- it's great but very slow & fiddlie - hard to make me sit down & do it. ( and not so lucrative for small things - the fees on the postage are as much sometimes as the item- ???- ) THAT TOO THO- STILL comes down to me and the "letting go" thing...
i despair sometimes - i feel greedy or grubby or something- i just seeee the great potential -
my organizing is plodding forward - - i get STUCK big time when it comes to actual picking it up and carrying it out Of the house..
i took three big cloths baskets of "stuff' down from attic- it's all stuff that needs alterations, finishing - i LOVE fabric (i'm seeing pillows- valences-quilts - fabric decopaged onto furniture - wall hangings appliqued flowers,rag rugs - wow -etc)(my addiction - textiles) - so tried to go thru realistically- what to give up on and chuck?
i can hardly throw anything away- have to recycle- rag - paint old galvanized tub pink & turquoise & put in garden for hose - a real sickness here.
my pile to get rid small - did it again- pile bigger-
now i am at that fatal stage that feeeeels soooo uncomfortable & makes me panic- BRAIN SAYS (what if i need it? what if i get really really poor and can't buy anything new - forever - what if i neeeeeed it- WHAT IF I GET fat, what if i get skinny - blah blah -) i've never been THAT poor that i was starving or something- you'd think i was.
SO- THIS A.M. -I AM HOPING that after having coffee for a bit i will address those piles again and MAKE THE DECISIONS. here's where it's hard to GET REALfor me.
you know- several times in my life when the decisions were HUGE- I COULD plunge rite in and KNOW THE right way. i mean BIG BIG ONES _ LIKE pulling plug on my favorite sister-
YET- FACED WITH THOSE PILES - i wiver and waiver and you'd think i never decided anything in life.....wtf??? (v. bad for my ego - this "STUFF " stuff...
YOU BEING AN ORGANIZER -
YOU SHOULD GO RITE OUT AND HANG OUT YOUR SHINGLE AND DO IT- it would be serving humanity. this is so traumatic and i need SOMEONE here just egging me on- saying nicely- you'll never wear it- it makes your hips look huge - DO you really love that fabric that much? chop it rite up now - just pile it in the garage and see if you look for it- so on- -
THERE are tons of guys like me out there- no hoarder by any means- just tons of great stuff in the attic & garage-- i stock pile great fabric and craft supplies (half done original rag dolls - old linens for all sorts of creations it's alll that stuff - how does one contain & store so it's seeable & findable easily - and then actually do allll the wonderful thigns i hae inmind.
that being said- i'm going to take a pretty antique dresser scarf i found & make a pouch thing to hang on side of bed for book & glasses - i need to JUST DO IT with using this stuff. it's great. i did cut a lovely gauzy dress in half and made two long valences from the skirt- on my front sunny hot windows in bedroom - turquoise backgr with giant yellow & purple flowers- it's glorious with sun shingin thru today-
I WILL GET THERE- IT'S just keeping focused. i go to put one thing in cellar and three hours later (and one painted wall_ ) i remember what i was doing upstairs - leaving a trail of half done - half painted - etc things. -
I CAN'T BELIEVE ANYONE LOVES IT AND IS GOOD AT IT. i think honestly i have the space to store things better - it's gotten out of hand -
I AM GOING TO DO IT THO- IF IT KILLS ME- AND HOPEFULLYSOON.
XXOO HOPE YOUR DAY is okay- i can't think about this yet - the "stuff" (if i only had a neice or sister who wanted it- i can give it away in a heartbeat if someone likes it and needs it- to a good home - eeeeek?????
