I dont believe my S has missed me. I am home too much for her liking. I am tossed up with wanting to be home for my kids and for her to see my 180s and such. I am gone usually 4 days per week due to my job.
I can travel anywhere in the world for next to nothing because of my job. If I were single without kids I would be visiting my sister and her family in Cancun right now. However, because we have two amazing children who I love to spend time with, I stay close to home and try to let my S do what she wants with her girlfriends while Im home. That is how I am giving her space. Then I go to work and she is rid of me for 3 to 5 days.
If it were not for my kids, I think I would be in Cancun right now, even if my sister wasn't there. My family has no idea what is going on with my M and how precarious it is. My hope is that me and my wife can work out our issues and we can resume our relationship with out anyone knowing how close we are to separation and D. I know that is a big ask but, that is what I have been praying for.
I know I cant change or fix the way my wife is feeling. I am frustrated though.
Is it wrong to take off to Cancun for a couple of days without my wife and kids. It makes me feel very guilty just thinking it.
