For me, in the end, I do not think that his new relationship is what is killing any possible relationship for me, surprisingly, it is the being ignored and the indifference that makes me hate him.
sometimes i (try) and keep the hate at bay - thinking it only disrupts my wa...
sometimes i cuss at the phone - i told him once "i'm just awaiting the day i wake up and hate him enough to walk away" - not there quite yet. he said "that's hard". couldja die- what a jerk- in my world he is not even entitled to have feelings- much less "hurt feelings" he's sooooooo trashed me & mine...
what a bonehead to even comment and think i care or he's entitled. GIANT GIANT INDICATOR OF THE BREaDTH & DEPTH OF THEIR DELUSIONAL STATE - & INSANITY).
i know a few things about insanity (friend schizophrenic episodes big time w/ me and my sister - sister breakdown & resulting schizo including covering appliances & tv so 'THEY ' can't scan her brain (died alcoholic & anorexic) ; another friend w/ breakdown & depresson & "mad mom" 88, mad about it and depressed) ( wonder WHAT'S in our water here???)
they are as blind and insane as any of above (diagnosed) crazienesses- it's sad - they're sad- and they (none of them) see it - at all...
my H thinks he's "my friend". he's a $hit friend. if any other friend treated me like this and lied - i'd never talk to them again in my life. no reason- no justification- JUST SAYIN "NO' . told him he doesn't know what word means.
with alllll our flaws - we were "just fine' FOR A long long time. we didn't change (that much) - they did - well, their ego- out look- sanity - did.
of that i'm sure. no guarantees or promisses or hope - but I am certain of that. they picked us & we were good together for along long time -
i agree- i would not be albe to look myself in the face if i hurt anyone this much. i guess that's why they cannot acknowledge it- and go to such great lengths to rewrite- hide-delude self- etc. SEEEE WHAT I MEAN
