yeah - i know, still some gas in the tank! wtf? i'm thinking it's nothing more than "who we are". we are the ones that stand - take a stand- walk thru fire for love.
they are the ones that are less, what??? ABLE to (well,) everything. MAYBE it's a matter of knowing who you are & seeing it for what it is too (good & bad points) - i'm pretty clinical this morning. i was just mulling over the crazy circular path we're in (on) with our h's - move in- they pull back - pull back- they keep near- on and on. round & round she goes - where it lands - nobody knows.
it's so sad and such a waste of good "life". they cannot see it - i'm not going to rewrite my latest (idea number 9,875298747345) big insight - put it in my thread. just sayin
you sound pretty philosophical today - nice to chat with a sis.
sisters - they can be great - we all know . oooorr they can be the biggest jerks. my closest sister died in '08 - alcohol. she was a really good person and my closest ever one. others are okay tho - have(3)more.
one talks somuch it's like standing under niagra falls with your mouth open- it's overwhelming sometimes - but she's very non-judgemental abut me & sitch- so i appreciate the support -
I was really close to youngest - she's decided she "cannot tolerate" being around my h - and me because of this sitch and how awful he is to me - she's wrapped very very tightly and has a real pompous a$$ of an h (THEY CHEATED on his wife - btw - and did to her what my h is doing to me- can ya die? and now judge him!!!! i swear - talk about "blind".
YET THEY ARE sooooo f'ing righteous & judgemental they can hardly tolerate either of us!! (if it's not crucial & about my mother - she doesn't talk to me for last couple years. get that huh? what a jerk- i hope she's okay & happy- but geeeeez. what a fool... the minute it's not her problems & issues - she blows her stack. i still am amazed that her answer to me being in my sitch is to blow me off totally because i did not IMMEDIATELY take her advice and chuck him out the window... no kidding. couldja die?
anyway- YOU LOVE TO CLEAN & ORGANIZE????? I NEED YOUR PARTICULAR EXPERTISE HERE- AND A TIP OR TWO (if you have any)
i know where things are & am v organized - - BUT it's all gotten a bit out of hand. toooo many of everythings. craft projects - fabric (i seeee the potential IN too mucH)Cloths i keep because i love the fabric - SUPPLIES interesting things - -
BIT WHERE I NEED HELP IT THIS - what exactly do i tell myself - or aim for - when it comes to actual getting rid of things. actually LETTING GO. I THINK i've got a phobia here- i make a pile - then i look at it- and a small panic sets in and i begin thinking "what if i'm poor and i need it or something like it and i can't afford anything and i need this? maybe i need to keep it "in case". that sort of thing.
it sounds so dumb - but it stops me - i swear it. then i start to re-look and so on. when i got there yesterday - i stopped and did not put it back- decided to try again today.
TODAY i'm trying to load it into bags or bins & put in garage- out of house- see if i look for it any time or hope i'll forget it and just donate without ever looking in again.
BUT - STILL HAVE HARD TIME getting it out the back door. like a physical barrier stopping me walking it thru the house and out.
any tips you tell self??? how do you decide what you'll never ever wear again- or looks like hell and you shouldn't wear-
OH GOSH- GOT THINKING ABOUT H YESTERDAY & SITCH HERE- and thinking of cclothing i'd saved because i love it- and it's BACK IN STYLE NOW - and i wore to work- made me laugh- wondering if our h's come "back in style" if we save them long enough- talk about your basic "closet of life" ...
or - rid of things you LOVE TO WEAR becaue they're comfy but you look bad and probably shouldn't.
i find self wanting to get rid of new things that are worth donating & reselling - and keeping the junk!!!
get that ... i like old things better than new too. (why i db as well????) old & comfy vs new & needs "breakin in"???
my natural laziness???
if you have any organizational tips - i'll appreciat e them ALOT - i'm kind of STUCK - BUT HOPing to get un-f'ing-stuck today.
at least - nothing here is going back up to attic.
