Well its been 7 hours since I last heard for H and its been 3 days since my boys and I saw him. Oh well this is what he wanted to be free from us and to be with OW. Its still hard to try to let go and move on with my new life alone and trying to be the best parent to my boys. My biggest wish is for my two S's know that I have tried to keep our family together even though I made lots of mistakes on trying to fix our family. I'm still have lots of mix emotions on one hand I want to keep trying to save our family and on the other hand I know its pretty much done. One day I will have to seriously choice to keep working to savey M or just stop trying cause at this time he is done with our M. I have so much soul searching to do. Yes I believe I finally woke up to my new role as a single parent. My dream is hopefully I will be a good mom to my S's. Well thats is all for now. Happy belated 4th of July everyone
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
