Not alone at all. I fully understand the depression.
After my 1st divorce years ago, long before I heard about DB, I had the same problem. Same thing in 2007 with current W. I've done a little better this time (she's a WAW again....). I still need to work on the depression - it's keeping me from being able to concentrate on work, and if I lose my job, this sitch is going to get far, far worse.
I also work from home, and that in itself can be enormously stressful and difficult for the family dynamic. Also, I am very analytically, and want to reason it out - emotions don't often respond well to reason! I also way, way, way, over-analyze everything and every contact or interaction.
Also, this time around, when my wife left, it was right as we were getting ready to move into a new house, so we've been under a lot of stress and busy trying to get two houses fixed up, one to sell and one to move into. And it was on the heals of 2 very stressful years of work. I think this kind of thing cropping up around major life changes is probably common.
So, I hope it helps to know that you're not alone. And please contact someone if you really feel suicidal!
