Up in the air, LONG

[Demoted26]

Thanks for the ideas, chl. Husband earns a good living, because we aren't officially S I don't qualify for anything. which is rough, because I'm living off about $125 a month for food, clothes, gas, and "entertainment". H spends that a week on food alone, then double that on gas a week. He works for it.


Today is sucking, theres a weird vibe in the house, AND...its 108, way too hot to do anything, everyone is edgy. We do have fireworks for later. Hoping that will be fun.
Everyone is grumpy, D is being very RUDE to H today. In fact, I'm in the bedroom & he just came in & said, " I should come hide in here". I asked why, he said, "It's obvious D hates me,I see the look in her eye (then he related something she said/did). I just don't understand! I didn't do anything to her to make her hate me".
I just listened & said I understood, and that she's very unhappy right now.
I've tried explaining to him once before that she is hurt & feels abandoned. He doesn't "get it".
Yesterday she was calling him an assh°le. Both S &I said, "hey!" at the same time. She is angry, I understand. He left her behind too, to deal with that &my fear/ sadness/"poverty" too.

I hate this. Maybe just moving out & me not seeing him, it would be easier for the two if us to heal?
D has already said shes written him off. I'm trying to get her to change her outlook, I font want that for them...not at all. She's super negative, and it eats you to be that way. I see it eating at her...

She's mad at me too...told me I'm a doormat, need to move on, F him.
If only she could understand.it's not that easy.