yuck- what a wakeup call - middle nite! sounds soo rocky for hm and ow- makes me glad.
idk about him "tucking you in" other post. he cares - it's all it could be. my h- gets out of bed and never looks back. he snuggles over sometimes for a back scratch or just tentative touch at bedtime - always makes me wonder wtf he's thinking, wanting, doing????? idk dawn
i just try and be pleasant, affectionate (a very small bit) i don't know what he's wanting- he's going to have to be very clear before i dive n anywhere with him. it's sad & i wonder if i'm supposed to be "reading his mind" with everything in life.
i did that for 38 yrs - it hasn't worked out so well. now, i try and not anticipate anything or assume anything.
how the heck else to be??? is it detaching? even a bit???
SO did ow "butt dial" you and nobody knew you were called? do you think? i'll be curious what it means or comes of it- or if you find out.
i hope your fourth is nice and you do go walk over for fireworks, etc.
i saw them in our town las nite with girl i walk with and her H. they're nice- i felt bit like a 3rd wheel- they're v close & it reminds me of me and h and how we communicated and felt wth eachother-
i want it - makes me feel envious to see it up close & remember allllllllllllllllllllll those other 4ths of july and fireworks. wonder if h will be sitting somewhere w/ow holding hands and saying ooooh aaaauuhhhh at the fireworkds.
wonder if he'll have a thought for me and allll those years.
ya do wonder - donja??? oh well- gonna have an okay day i hope - so back to the cleaning out-
have mountains of stuff - trouble letting go- but determined to pile it in garage or somewhere OUT OF attic, closet, etc.
will deal with actualy final let-go later. for now- some difference inside house - some how - some way
BTW - NO, I AM NOT IN THE least a hoarder, nothing piled in ourliving space- it's pleasant and tidy- just an attic & garage (and cellar one tiny bit) with some big junk festivals going on- craft supplies & inventory-
too much clothing & fabric in attic-
the usuals i think- but now it's on my nerves and i am ready for a change in space-
so onward & upward with that- maybe i'll go over and help mom cover her couch- it's functional - easy & good tolook at something new for a change. yay
hope you're okay and still free of the turmoil in h's life.
hang in there- YAY- INDEPENDENCE DAY (uh hem -m aybe??)
