Thanks AJM, I think it's part trying to justify her actions and part out of guilt for what she's doing. Either way, deep down she knows its wrong.

M - 42
W- 37
S's - 9,6
M-12
T-14
FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011
ILYBNILWY - march '12
FIL - died jan '13
W Moved out week later