Not confused...moving towards acceptance

[BRNR]

It is late, but keeping everyone posted. I am lost and don't think I can ever come back.

H picked up the kids today and demanded to talk. I was on the phone and told him I had somewhere to be...he wouldn't leave. He wants the tax return. I told him that I didn't have it. I ended up having to call the cops because he wouldn't leave...they came told him the deal. I was a wreck for three hours knowing he had the kids. He came back late with the kids and dumped them at the door. My oldest son was visibly upset so I asked if he or his brother wanted to talk. We did about a lot of things. H told my son I was lazy and that is why he left, even when s14 defended me and said it was untrue he still stuck to the story. H's gf/ow is officially moving into his apartment. H made s14 carry all her boxes into the apartment. S14 to.d his dad he didn't like ow. H didn't care and told s14 he had to have respect and he is his father. There is a lot more and not all in order, but that H hates me, s14 said ow is ugly and such a loser, really ugly and he doesn't see what h sees in her. I also got mad when h was here and wouldn't leave...he started throwing out how I was a bad mom for calling the cops and I said I am a bad parent but you and your girlfriend are trying to give my son alcohol. Oh yeah, not good. He questioned s14 later and s14 admitted he told me...h had nothing to say after that. S14 doesn't want to go back...ever. Started calling h "that man". H called the cops after dropping kids off...supposedly the officer said his chief said that he is "entitled to a copy of the tax return". I told officer It was at the attorneys office and gave him the attorneys name. I find it hard to believe that the cops would get involved that way...especially when I mentioned h had a warrant and they wouldn't even look it up. No matter. H tried twice to get what he wanted and failed.

I don't know what to do from here...