Questions without answers...will the hurt stop?

[albamarie]

Tonight as H is getting ready for work he come's in my room where I am laying done due to a headache and says, mama...do you want the light off and the fan on, to which I said yes opening my eyes just enough to see him want to lean down and kiss me, he hesitates, stops, and says now it's comfortable in here as he walks out.

Wondering, why does he still call me by his lovingly given name when we had kids if he's so done being my H, and what is with the need to make me cozy and the instinct to kiss me good-by?

He has never calls me Dawn, even when he referes to me he says "my wife" to this day. But, he doesn't want a W. I know MLC confusion...but it's hard not to have some real facts to base this on. I am a fact person, who needs it spelled out.

I called him by his shortened name for 23 yrs, since BD I have only called him by his full name, no cuteness, and he has a very strong name that makes a person sound almost angry when you say it.

I'm not trying to be his little mama full of L with dinner on the table and kiss for her man, he can't stop seeing me like that, even in the face of my silence and borderline neglect.

Do I have to be like this for a long time, or do I have to WAW? Why should he make any efforts if his mind still see's everything is good? I don't like being uncordial, soon that will be fake and then what do I have, just the exact girl he knows I am, way too good for him.